I didn’t fit in

I didn't fit in

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I made a mistake when I left my old job for a new job that paid more money. There were signs from the beginning but I was tempted by the potential pay raise. I first noticed the signs when I went in for the assessment test. I should have followed my initial thought, I was going to forego the assessment test. However, people encouraged me to go for it.

When I went in for the assessment I felt I could not picture myself doing the job. There were things I saw that I knew I wouldn’t like. Do you ever get the feeling that you are unable to picture yourself working somewhere? Or that you don’t fit in? That is the feeling I got each time I was there for the assessment and interview.

There were a few big turn offs I encountered but still ignored them. The money was blinding me, I suppose.

After finally starting the new job, I realized how much I missed my old job. Just days into the new job, I applied for jobs at my old job. I knew right away that I didn’t fit in. I misssed my co-workers. I missed the job itself too.

Every day, I would wake up not wanting to go to work. It literally made me sick. I hated being there. I didn’t fit in there either. I found myself taking a store brand ibuprofen and stress supplement twice a day! I knew the job wasn’t for me. I told everyone who asked how I felt about the job. Of course, I don’t think anyone could really understand how I was feeling.

Working full time, I found that I had little time for fitness, household chores and I started resenting my spouse. He would play video games all day and not help with any cleaning.

I am trying to get my old job back or another position with my former employer and applying everywhere I can. My spouse also asked his boss about any full time positions.

Last night, I decided I needed to resign immediately. After sending the email, I felt a huge weight lift from my shoulders. I feel like my job was bad for my mind, body and health.

In the meantime, I am very happy to be a full time blogger again. I strive for harmony, peace and happiness and I am finally feeling that again!


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Stephanie is a wife and mom. She has been married for over twelve years and started blogging shortly after getting married. When not blogging at Beauty Brite, she can be found spending time with her husband and son, catching up on Netflix, or working out. Feel free to contact Stephanie for more information on how she can help your company.


  1. I didn’t realise it was that bad hun, I hope your old job will take you back but in the mean time at least you can start feeling okay about things again xx

  2. I think it’s a wonderful idea that you re-signed. It is so important to be happy at your job, since it is something you spend 40 hours a week doing. I hope you find another position that you love.

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