Feeling Lost

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When I was in elementary school, I remember I wanted to be an archeologist for a little bit.  At the time, we were studying history and artifacts that were found in Egypt.  I was also interested in being a teacher.

Now that I am an adult, I still do not know what I want to do with my life.  While I love being a mom, I do know I should be doing something.  I feel like I should be doing something.  I have been feeling lost off and on for the last few years now.  A few years ago, I enrolled in an online college and ended up quitting after two classes.  I felt overwhelmed and it didn’t feel right to me.  Over the last year, I have been focusing on my blog and social media.

A few months ago, I graduated with honors from an online Medical Administrative Assistant course, I also took a national test to get certified, which is recognized by employers.  Unfortunately, after graduating and earning my certification, I quickly learned that employers prefer experience over education and even certification.  I have applied for several jobs in the medical field for administrative, office support, medical records positions, with no luck.  I do not think it is my resume, as the school offered resume help.  They made my resume look really great!  I am a little disappointed that I have not found a job.  However, I look at my education as an added bonus on my brand new resume.

Now that it has been over a year since I was enrolled in college to earn my Bachelor’s Degree, I am thinking about returning to college!  Perhaps, it is time to just do it!  Another reason I quit college was because of the loans.  I dislike loans and I always wonder if it is worth the debt after graduation.  Finding a job is not a guarantee.  I am worried I will not be able to pay back my loans.

My husband earned his Bachelor’s Degree and we have to figure out how to pay his school loans back.  It hasn’t earned him a better job.  He wanted his Bachelor’s Degree to go to law school.  But there are other issues holding him back from even applying, such as financial reasons.

In all, I am still lost.  I think I am going to pursue my Bachelor’s Degree.  I just feel lost in my life.  I love my life, but I feel like I should be doing more for myself and my family.


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Stephanie is a wife and mom. She has been married for over twelve years and started blogging shortly after getting married. When not blogging at Beauty Brite, she can be found spending time with her husband and son, catching up on Netflix, or working out. Feel free to contact Stephanie for more information on how she can help your company.


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